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July 30, 2012


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Journal Entry: Mon Jul 30, 2012, 6:36 PM
  • Mood: Emotional
So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right?


Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They'll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you're fooling around. Then they'll start shaking you. Why aren't you breathing? They'll be broken.


Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears.


Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day.


More guilt. What about your best friends? They're not going to care. Right? No. What's the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you're not alive. While your best friend sits there in tears. That girl that you'd smile at but never talk to? She's now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He'll be shocked. He'll be devastated. He'll blame himself. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind. She'll question if you did it because she didn't make school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organizes your funeral? Who has to go through your stuff? Clothes? Notes? Those few older girls who used to give you daggers at school? They'll feel regret. They'll blame themselves. See, if you killed yourself today, you'll never know what might have happened tomorrow. You'll never know because you're dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. Your family hates themselves for it. Your best friend then falls into depression. Tears. Tears. More tears than a river. All because you killed yourself because you thought no one would care. Right?

You are loved.

By many. Someone right now is thinking of you. And right now, I'm thinking about anyone who has thought or is considering suicide. You are beautiful. No matter if you're black, white, homo-sexual, tall, short, overweight or anorexic.

You are beautiful.

You want to kill yourself? Think about it first. There's no coming back. And I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears than you led yourself to. You are making everyone miserable and making them all feel guilt and pain. Never will they feel whole like they used to when they had you. You are beautiful.

And you are never ever alone.

And guys, I'm not saying that I think you are thinking about suicide, I just want you to know that it's not the answer if you ever do consider it, and that you do matter, and you would  be missed.

~A Smart Friend (Rikki)

I know I've posted this before... but it's been awhile and... I think... I need to remind some people that suicide is never the answer and they always have someone that loves them... even when it doesn't seem like it.  


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aliceusagi-chan Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
;w; I needed this.... its so great mind if I repost?
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I don't mind at all.
MysticFlamer Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is a very important post and very beautiful actually. Thank you for the refresher with this!
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem!
MysticFlamer Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
^^ :heart::rose:
DiscWarrior Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012
Thank you so much for writing this. It made me feel so much better because I've considered it many times and while reading this actually really opened my eyes as to what it would make others feel like if I went for it. (In the words of Tom Hiddleston-a little) Bless you for writing this. :hug:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Aww.. I'm glad it helped you out!
Bjartskular9 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
Thanks. It was nice to be reminded. :)
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem, dear! :hug:
TzikiiWolf Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Student Filmographer
Very well said! I know that many people can go through a succession of very bad events and situations and feel like life isn't worth it any more. But people should ALWAYS remember that life is precious and worth it! Things will always get better! Life moves on so keep going strong! :D
Even if you dont live once, you may come back but you will have no recollection of your past life so either way, in theory, you only live once. So make the most of it!!! :D
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