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YOU.ARE.NOT.ALONE.

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 30, 2012, 6:36 PM
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So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right?

No.

Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They'll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you're fooling around. Then they'll start shaking you. Why aren't you breathing? They'll be broken.

Tears.

Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears.

Pain.

Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day.

Guilt.

More guilt. What about your best friends? They're not going to care. Right? No. What's the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you're not alive. While your best friend sits there in tears. That girl that you'd smile at but never talk to? She's now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He'll be shocked. He'll be devastated. He'll blame himself. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind. She'll question if you did it because she didn't make school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organizes your funeral? Who has to go through your stuff? Clothes? Notes? Those few older girls who used to give you daggers at school? They'll feel regret. They'll blame themselves. See, if you killed yourself today, you'll never know what might have happened tomorrow. You'll never know because you're dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. Your family hates themselves for it. Your best friend then falls into depression. Tears. Tears. More tears than a river. All because you killed yourself because you thought no one would care. Right?

You are loved.

By many. Someone right now is thinking of you. And right now, I'm thinking about anyone who has thought or is considering suicide. You are beautiful. No matter if you're black, white, homo-sexual, tall, short, overweight or anorexic.

You are beautiful.

You want to kill yourself? Think about it first. There's no coming back. And I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears than you led yourself to. You are making everyone miserable and making them all feel guilt and pain. Never will they feel whole like they used to when they had you. You are beautiful.

And you are never ever alone.

And guys, I'm not saying that I think you are thinking about suicide, I just want you to know that it's not the answer if you ever do consider it, and that you do matter, and you would  be missed.

~A Smart Friend (Rikki)

I know I've posted this before... but it's been awhile and... I think... I need to remind some people that suicide is never the answer and they always have someone that loves them... even when it doesn't seem like it.  

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:iconaliceusagi-chan:
aliceusagi-chan Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
;w; I needed this.... its so great mind if I repost?
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Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I don't mind at all.
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MysticFlamer Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Professional General Artist
This is a very important post and very beautiful actually. Thank you for the refresher with this!
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem!
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MysticFlamer Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Professional General Artist
^^ :heart::rose:
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DiscWarrior Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2012
Thank you so much for writing this. It made me feel so much better because I've considered it many times and while reading this actually really opened my eyes as to what it would make others feel like if I went for it. (In the words of Tom Hiddleston-a little) Bless you for writing this. :hug:
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Aww.. I'm glad it helped you out!
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Bjartskular9 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
Thanks. It was nice to be reminded. :)
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem, dear! :hug:
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TzikiiWolf Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Student Filmographer
Very well said! I know that many people can go through a succession of very bad events and situations and feel like life isn't worth it any more. But people should ALWAYS remember that life is precious and worth it! Things will always get better! Life moves on so keep going strong! :D
Even if you dont live once, you may come back but you will have no recollection of your past life so either way, in theory, you only live once. So make the most of it!!! :D
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Exactly!
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TzikiiWolf Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012  Student Filmographer
:)
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Kurosaki224 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:heart:
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:iconbigheartplz:
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Kurosaki224 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:)
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Raphi-girl Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you.
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:huggle:
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kymmacaleb Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Student General Artist
So much worse because Nathan Wills just killed himself.
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Itari247 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
can I repost this?
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Absolutely!
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TariKendisigh Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
this is beautiful, mind if i repost this?
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I don't mind whatsoever!
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authorgirl1124 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
You know, one of my friends was considering this sort of thing once, and I found out about it by accident, and it totally freaked me out. I tried everything to get her to believe that she is beautiful and loved and important, but after a little while, I found out that she was still thinking about suicide. Then I talked to her parents and mine and arranged this thing where I didn't leave her side until she was happy again. I spent the night at her house and everyday, we went to do something fun or something she loved. We went to amusement parks, planetariums(she ADORES astronomy), libraries, heck, we even went ice skating!(in the middle of summer! XD)...in an indoor rink of course. A lot of times, we invited a bunch of our other friends too, and the outing would be this huge group of (obnoxiously loud XD) girls and guys acting like fools in public. After, like, two weeks, she finally began to smile again, and a month later she was nearly back to her normal self. I went back to my home after a month, but still visited almost every day, and every day she seemed happier and happier.
Today, two years later, she's one of my best friends, and is always smiling. She volunteers and counsels others in our school and community who are in the same place (or about to be there) she was a few years ago. She's now one of the happiest people I know! :D Some people have said I saved her life, and that I'm a hero, but I don't quite agree. SHE'S the hero. She's the one who saved her own life, by pushing through the sadness to find the happiness she now has. I was just there to support her.
Anyway, if I hadn't found out when I did, she might have gone through with her plans, never realizing how much devestation she would leave behind. I'm really touched when others try to reach out and remind those considering suicide that it's not worth it. Sorry for the lon-winded explanation though...
Thank you for this! :heart: :heart:
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
THAT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL. It brought tears to my eyes.. oh my god. You're such an amazing person! :iconsupertighthugplz:
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authorgirl1124 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012
Aw, thank you so much! You're quite wonderful yourself! :heart:
I dunno if I'd call it amazing though. I just couldn't deal if I were to lose her, and I knew a number of others felt the same way. She just needed to know that! :heart: I just hope and wish that EVERYONE who gets that depressed has someone to remind them that they are loved, y'know?
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's just amazing.. your selflessness brought your friend to her senses. And you made her happy! Depression is a very VERY difficult thing to get rid of and you were the reason she became happy again! She is so very lucky to have a friend like you! :heart: And yes, of course someone with depression like that definitely needs to be reminded they are loved!
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Thank you for sharing that story with me! :heart:

And I don't care what you say, you are still amazing. :')
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authorgirl1124 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012
Aw, thank you! I'm very glad to have her too; I love her so much! :heart:
Yes. So many deaths could be prevented if people paid more attention and reached out, you know? Well, there's still hope! ^^
You're welcome, and thank you! That's really nice of you to say :iconlazycryplz:
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Redrose-angel Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i thought about it once.......but mom came home and was freaking out and was in tears so since then i NEVER thought about doing it again. Mom is someone that i really love. She was under a LOT of stress and i blamed myself and thought if i was gone she would be sad but she would be better off without me.......kinda sad that it takes so long to realize that it's not the answer.
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Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
All that matters is that you realized it's not the answer. Good for you! :hug:
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Redrose-angel Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
*hugs back*
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LillMaroon-Marx Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
All of that is true..

come..let meh huggle you :iconsupertighthugplz:
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Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:huggle:
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LillMaroon-Marx Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012
:iconsupertighthugplz:
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ZanTheHawk Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012
I was about to commit suicide once, I didn't because there's no going back, no retry.

I didn't do it because I'm hoping things will get better

But all I hear is the opposite, how life is shit and it's only going to get worse.

Fun.
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's never the answer though. And it's good that you realized you won't come back from it. And don't listen to what people say. No one knows how their life will end up. If you make the most of it, you can make your life the way you want. Dwelling on negative things isn't going to help.
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x-MusicAtMidnight-x Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Well said, my dear. Well said.
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:D
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Emo-Writer-7251 Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
i remember.....

I tried two years ago with a sharp piece of glass. i poke my finger and it bled but when i ran it down my arm.....nothing happened. I always wondered what happened that night
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:icondemyboilover:
Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hrmm... interesting..
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Emo-Writer-7251 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
could never figure out why. well i never did it again after that, and I was thankful for everyday after that
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Mitsuki-Heartnet Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Student Writer
I'm sitting behind a TV with my sister in the same room trying not to cry. It isn't working very well. She asked me why I was sniffling so much. Dx Demy you owe me a tissue... and a hug. :iconsniffplz: But I'm glad you reposted this. :) It reminds ones self that things aren't always as bad as they seem.
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Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
*gives a tissue box and a giant bear hug* aww, come here, you. -w- :heart:
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Mitsuki-Heartnet Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Student Writer
-w- Thank you. :iconhuggleplz:
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paradoxchronicles Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
But sometimes I feel alone. Like the whole world is plotting against me. Everyone is judging me. Everyone has an opinion. There's no getting rid of paranoia, only keeping it at bay.
Just like suicide. If someone thinks about it, there's no stopping them. Only keeping them alive as long as you can.
But I also believe the world is over populating in people. So why not?
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Demyboilover Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Because why would you want to leave life like that? Thinking everyone hates you.. wouldn't you want to die happy? Yeah, maybe at that time, you're paranoid and feeling judged.. that doesn't mean it's going to stay that way!
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paradoxchronicles Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I realized that too.
Sure, I'm not planning on taking my own life, but I'm ready for someone else, or nature to do it.
I don't want to be disrespected, but I do feel like dying. I have a gut feeling that I'm going to die young as well.
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x-MusicAtMidnight-x Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
How about because it just keeps causing pain in the end?
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:iconparadoxchronicles:
paradoxchronicles Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Either way, this world doesn't go without pain.
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x-MusicAtMidnight-x Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yup.
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TheImaginaryKitten Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful. These words really make an impact! And a good one-- one that makes people think.. Suicide is an action you can't undo--and you can't tell all those people who are in pain how you feel afterwords.. I'm not suicidal, but suffer from depression myself. Just thinking of losing the people around me makes me sad, and I wouldn't do that to them.

Thanks so much for this<3
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